Cursed

Do you believe its really possible for a person to be cursed? Ive said for a long time now, that i feel like im cursed. Starting at age 11 i sarted losing the people i cared the most about, family, friends, boyfriends…. Anyone i cared deeply for. Now, being a mom with 2 teenagers, im scared to death all the time. I imagine them having a wreck or something happening to my youngest who has a serious heart condition. I dont want or try to think negatively. Thats just what my life has taught me. I have nowhere to or noone to turn to for any kind of help, not financially or emotionally. Why would god put anyone here, for a life so full of constant pain